There is no need hiding from the truth. I know that you are making progress as a person but you will always need the help of another.
Professional help is better of than nothing . It will drive you to rhe better option in tech industry.
To have more indept knowledge about your field of endeavor, seek a time with mentor. Mentoring will make things clear for you and show you what and what to do and getting the right result that you seek ..
Hakuna Matata ... Derek